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LOVE MEANS YOU WILL NEVER BE ALONE....

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LOVE IS A WAY OF SHOWING YOUR CARE TO SOMEONE....

berkurun lama....

hahahaha....sesuai je tajuk 2 kn? lame gle babi kot aku xbukak blog aku nie.....buruk plak rsenye...hahaha....xpe2, t lau de mse aku update k....2 pn lau aku rajin laa...haha...

I luv u...

its hard 4 me to find the words dat wil very clearly say
HOW MUCH I LUV U....
and how u're de meaning 2 each day.....
im so very glad i found u...
4 with all ur gentleness...
u hv brought joy into ma life and untold happiness....
thnx 4 evrything....
luv ya...

4 u ma dear~~~~

ma life has been enriched, since de tyme dat i met u...4 in evrything we share, i c a luv dat is so true and i c a heart dat alwayz cares...a nature dat is so kind...u're such a beautiful person who i've been so fortunate 2 find...u make ma heart beat faster and being wif u, i am maself...and de luv we share i treasure...4 it is a luv above all else...=)

aku kembali!!!

hati terdetik untuk menulis kembali sejak beberapa bulan yg dulu tp kekangan mase membataskn segalanya....

tp hari ini hatiku terbuka kembali untuk menaip segala yg terbuku didlm ati....

lame tlah ku pendamkn sgalanya...aku hanya insan yg lemah...yg bisa dipengaruhi oleh emosiku....biarpn kelihatan kuat pada zahirnya. tp dalaman ku yg rapuh membuatkn aku menjd seorg yg hipokrit...

ye, aku mmg hipokrit...dlm segala hal...aku cuba sedaya upaya untuk memenuhi kehendak kwn2 tp bagaimana dgn kehendak diriku sndri????

adakah aku tidak punya harga diri hingga dipandang rendah oleh mereka....

jawapannya hanya ada pada mereka...

tp aku tidak menyesal dgn apa yg terjd....malah aku yakin akn hikmahnya...dan sekarang, sedikit semi sedikit aku dpt melihatnya...

segala2nya berjalan seperti dirancang...aku pasrah dgn segalanya kerana aku taw DIA sentiase ade disisi melihat dan membantuku...lg2 disaat aku sedang jatuh...

aku bersyukur...dgn ape yang terjd....kerana aku taw..inilah dugaan buat aku..

supaya aku menjd insan yg lebih matang dlm segala hal...

insyaallah....

urgent!!!! read diz plz!!!

PERHATIAN!!!!!!!! HOSPITAL BESAR NEGERI SEMBILAN MEMERLUKAN PENDERMA DARAH "O-" DIWAD 4B(tampAtku ditempatkan dulu) MEREKA MEMERLUKAN DARAH "O-" INI UNTUK MENYELAMATKAN SEORANG PESAKIT YANG KINI BERADA DALAM KEADAAN YANG SERIUS SUDAH HAMPIR 2BULAN MENGALAMI KOMPLIKASI DAN DARAH INI AMAT DIPERLUKAN DENGAN SEGERA..UNTUK BERITA LANJUT BOLEH HUBUNGI MR.ARVIND 012-6788805

fwd la kat kwn2 yg len ye....sme2 la kte membantu yg memerlukan....

its over~~~

hahahaha....finally, it has come 2 d end....ROS is over...im happy 4 dat but sumhw, deep inside ma heart....i can feel the sadness n the pain....its not dat much bt its stil thr....hmmm...juz imagine, i've been duin diz 4 the past 3 weeks n starting 2mrw, evrything's gone n im bck 2 d old AMIRUL who is nothing n nobody...no more entering the class, no more ppl calling me sir o cikgu n the most important thing is, no more getting up early in the mornin....hmmmm....i started 2 mis dat already...bt diz is life...beginnings r usually scary n endings r usually sad....bt its evrything in between dat m8s it all a worth living....so, cheer up mirul...b strong...huhu..

i juz luv ma students....all of 'em...they touched ma heart....i admit dat sumtyme i feel bored relieving all the classes bt i stil do ma bez 2 entertain them....n i've made it...alhmdlh....i also f ma favourite class which is 6 ibnu khaldun....(fyi, its the laz class in the standard)....they knew dat tdy is ma laz day at school.....so they wrote their biodata 4 me s a present....the whole class biodata is on ma table....n some present t0o....n im so touched by their words.... it puts me on tears diz mornin when i read it...i feel like i dun wan 2 go bck...i wan 2 b thr 4 them bt i juz cant....i really cant....here r few quotations of their words...

"cgu yg plg dsygi : cgu amirul"
"cgu amirul cute mcm telaber (wrong spelling, it suppose 2 b teddybear)"
"smoge cgu berjaya n kembali mngajar d cni"
"kami akn rindu cgu"
"kenangan manis : smase cgu mirul mngajar kami"
"kenangan pahit: smase cgu mirul sudah tiada d skola"
las bt nt least and this 1 made me cry alot..."slamat jln cgu mirul, bye2..."

im speechless....dunno wat 2 say....i juz knew them 4 bout 3 weeks n they already f a special place in ma heart....n im nt gonna 4get them cz they r ma 1st students ever....

tribute to Michael Jackson @ Mikael

On d Sad mornin of June 25, 2009 MJ was discovered collapsed at his rental home in LA. 911 emergency services responded promptly at 12:21 pm Pacific time arriving at 12:30 pm 2 find MJ unconscious n not breathing. He was rushed 2 the UCLA Medical Center n after a brief slip into a coma Michael was pronounced dead at 2:26pm; d cause reported as cardiac arrest. THE LA Police Department has opened an investigation n an autopsy is scheduled for Friday, June 26, 2009.

MJ lived a very colourful life and during a short 50 years he made an indelible mark on our planet, Earth. Whether r nt u r a fan thr is nobody who can deny his impact n d memory of him which wil persist in all of us indefinitely. Spread the word of MJ's legacy and m8 sure every1 wil alwayz remember him 4eva......

always luv u MJ.....i'll remember when ma mom introduced me 2 u...through vhs tapes n music...ur luv of humanity makes u special in all of our hearts, ur charity work n ur music dat brought all races 2gether, dancing 2 the same beat. all in ur own sadness n happiness, u accomplished wat many f nt n showed us things we should give a damn bout..I hope in ur death dat ppl come 2 c dat thr r more important things in life....n stop being so selfish...

R.I.P

another sweet story that happened to me....

went out juz nw...2 photostat few documents....along d way bck 2 ma home, i met a group of kids playing wif their bicycle at one junction in front of a restaurant....em, s usual....i juz walk through ppl without even lookin o turn ma face 2 'em....n i did d same thing 2 these kids....all of a sudden, i heard sum1 said "eh, cikgu mirul....". bt i pretended 2 hear nothin...n continued walking til another kid called ma name out loud..."cikgu mirul(2x)....". n almost evry1 at d restaurant was lookin at me....so, i really f 2 turn ma face 90 degree n look at 'em....haha=p....i waved ma hand 2 'em n said..."watpe kt cni??? da mlm nie....g blk, esk skola kn???". hahaha....n they replied, "x,bru blk ngaji....nk blk uma da nie cikgu....cikgu nk g ne 2???". i answered, "nk blk uma laa...td g kdai jap....cikgu blk dlu ye....esk jmpa kt skola...k, asalamualaikum??". then, i continued bck ma walking 2 home....

but that is not d point of wat i am trying 2 say....i didnt xpect ppl 2 greet me o rmmbr me bt d thought that came 4rm 'em made me happy in million ways....im impressed that they can rmmbr ma name evnthough, i juz went 2 their class once......oh, so sweet of 'em....

they really make ma day (final episode)~~~

haha=p....wat hapen nex?? em, after done seing all ma teachers....n salam2 wif them...we decided to go bck...

SUDDENLY!!!!!!!!

JOM MEN BOWLING!!!!!!!
sum1 says sth in a murmur....
hah??? really???
nk2...yok2...haha....
bt every1 has 2 go home 1st....
2 perform the ZOHOR prayer...
we agreed 2 meet up again at parkson
around 3 o'clock....

so, i went bck 2 school...wanie n gjah sent me...after bout 2 n a half hours disappeared frm school...haha=)...sgt jahat...huhu...then, i packed all ma belongings n m8 maself prepared 2 go bck home...i left the school at 2.10 pm n arrived at ma home around 2.30 pm....mandi manda n siap2 then text wak ajak join diz outing....pastu i hv 2 wait til 3 cz safwan wil come n fetch me...then we both go to wak's house 2 t8 her...

tiba d parkson at 3.40 n trus men bwlg.....damn happy cz at last we get a chance 2 get together again like wat we used to do during our tyme at school b4....haha=p.....being wif all of them is one of the bez memory i ever had.....n i admit it that i luv them all....after done throwing ball,we decided to watch movie....n guess wat mv....???

TRANSFORMERS!!!!

haha=p....xminat pn sbnrnye.....tp join je utk melengkapkn majlis....juz follow d majority....xmo rosakkn mjls...so we choose 2 watch the mv at MBO....xnk lme la pulok mv 2....bout 3 hours in the cinema....4 me ok la cite 2....ade part yg bez n ade yg x...huhu~~ then, after finished, we say good bye 2 each other n salam2 n peluk2 n cium2.....pastu evry1 balik ke uma msg2...

i went home nek kete safwan wif wak n shida....1st we sent shida 2 her house at tmn bkt kepayang....ade hidden meaning sbnrnye....she wanted 2 gv me sth....haha=)...ma bdy present.....n keychain 4rm tganu....then, anta wak....tp smpi kt uma wak we stopped 4 awhile....(lame kot....)haha....makan2, borak2 ngan cgu normah(mak wak) xhenti2....huhu...
n ble da kenyang, kami pn mulekn pjlnan pulang.....safwan sent me home n smpi uma lam kul 10 lbh....im extreemly tired bt its worth it...sgt suke today's outing....i enjoyed goi out wif them n lookin 4wd to do it again soon....

to : wak,safwan,apis,wanie,daus pauzi,xyong,gjah,daus awal,azu,shida,nina,lyana n adik (geng g skola n tgk mv)

to : ammar n ilyas ( bkn nme sbenar)

to : all ma beloved teachers at SMKSA, teacher islamiah,cgu faezah,teacher nancy,cgu akbar,cgu sharifah,cgu suraya, cgu aisha kiran, cgu normah,cgu norhashima,teacher rokiah, teacher sharifah norhaizam, cgu zamry n many more....

thnx 2 all of u cz u guys really make ma day....im so happy 2 meet wif all of u n i luv u guys!!!!!

~DONE~

they really make ma day (part 2)~~~

i win a ticket diz morning....yeahhh!!! fyi,its not a lotery ticket o watsoeva but its a relieve class ticket...haha=)....i got 2 classes dat hv 2 b relieve at 10.35 am - 11.05 am n another 1 is at 11.35 - 12.05am...bt d problem here is i cant m8 it to relieve d 11.35am class....y?? cz i've planned wif ma old frenz dat we r goin 2 visit our teachers at ma scondary school today around 11 o'clock diz mornin....haaaaa, hw??? im planning 2 m8 maself disapear from ma table 4 about 2 o 3 hours...bt it seems so hard 4 me....howwwwwwwwwww!!!!

TINGGGGG!!!!!! (d devil has play his role)

i got an idea....m8 use of them....d practical student....ask them 2 help u...begging them....use ur sweet words n mouth AMIRUL!!!! go n blow them away...go3....hahahaha=) (evil laugh)

me : abg syafiq, nk minx tlg sgt2...mirul de appointment dgn cgu kt skola menengah sebelah nie....cgu2 lme mirul...nk g jmpa derg dgn kwn2 lam kul 11....tp kne relieve class lak....so sgt2 memerlukn bantuan abg nie....tlg mirul leh x abg....1 waktu jew....plz abg....

abg syafiq : abg pn ade kls relieve mirul...kul 12.05....

me : ok la 2....pas kls mirul, abg trus msk kls abg lak...kls yg sme kew??? drjh bpe??

abg syafiq : 2 IS....

me : bgs2...sme kls....yeye...so kire abg relieve 1 jam la ye....blh ye abg....sgt2 minx tlg nie....

abg syafiq : xleh la mirul....abg de keje pasni....nk g jmpa guru pembimbing abg....

me : (mulukan stage ke-2)...smpi ati....daa la mggu nie mggu trakhir mirul....pasni xde da org nk minx tlg kt abg....kali ni je....d 1st n d last....(nada merayu)

abg syafiq : ok laa...ok laa...meh cni tiket 2...

me : yeke??? blhhh??? waaaaah, happy nyeeeeee....mekace abg syafiq....

hahahaha=) (another evil laugh)....so, i can m8 it 2 meet ma frenz....no probs anymore....huhu...

then, around 11.20 i went 2 ma old school n meet ma frenz....glad 2 b bck at ma old place....whr i learnt almost evrything bout life n frenship....n hw good it feels 2 b bck at school n meet ur old teachers....hw proud they are when we all said dat we r university student nw....they didnt say it out loud but deep inside their heart, i noe they feel tons of saticfaction....n it shows on their face...nenek@lalah alwayz say " action speaks louder than word".......n its damn true...b at school wif them is such a great feeling.....

~BERSAMBUNG~

they really make ma day~~~

alkisahnye bmule pada pagi yg hening...angin pagi yg dingin terasa menusuk hingga ke dasar tulang seluruh badanku....spt pg2 sebelumnye, aku bersiap sedia utk ke skola lg pd hr ini utk mghabiskn sisa2 baki ros ku yg msh berbaki 2 hr....seawl jam 6.50 pg,.aku sudah siap mengenakan pakaian yg di'iron' smlm iaitu bju kemeja maroon kegemaranku dan slua slack hitam....setelah melihat diriku ddlm cermin utk seketika dan berasa yakin dgn penampilanku hr ini, aku terus menyarung sepatu hitamku yg dbeli d bundle d taman tasik....10 minit kemudian, aku sudah pn berada d ats jalan tar d kampungku untuk menghayunkan langkah kaki ku menuju ke destinasi yg satu iaitu skolaku....Apabila aku sampai d 1 selekoh tajam,TIBA-TIBA .....hayunan lagkahku diberhentikan oleh satu suare aneh yg berada dhadapanku....

ilyas : asalamualaikum cikgu???
aku : wslm....smt pg....
ammar : smt pg cikgu....cikgu dari mane??
aku : rumah laa....rumah sy kat blakang nie je...lorong 3....
ilyas : o0o....jalan kaki je ke cikgu??
aku : aah, sy org miskin...xmampi lg nk bli moto....hehe...em,sy gerak dulu ye...
ilayas dan ammar : ok cikgu...jumpa kat skola jap g ye...jln elok2...
aku : baik....kamu pn jgn lewat sgt...ye..
ilyas dan ammar : baik cikgu....

aku pn meneruskan pjalananku yg terhenti sebentar td tanpa menoleh kbelakang....tetapi aku dpt mendengar dgn jelas suara halus yg sedang berbisik2 dibelakangku....

ammar : cikgu 2 baik ke??? xpnh ajar aku pn....?
ilyas : baik gle....smlm kn, die tlg aku mse xm....die bg jawapan BI....baik sgt...
ammar : yeke?? xadil laa cmni...aku xde spe tolong pn....cikgu practical aku 2 xbaik laa...xbg jawapan....

hahaha=)....hatiku tercuit dek kerana terdengar perbualan ank2 ini....senyuman terukir dbibirku sambil hatiku berkata, im gonna miz them all....tepat jam 7.10 pg...aku tiba dskola dan terus ke pejabat utk menulis kehadiranku seperti biasa....

~BERSAMBUNG~

p/s : nama2 yg tertulis diatas tidak ade kene mengena dgn yg idup atau yg sdh meninggal dunia....

hari pertama d skola....

haha=)...bermula la ROS d skola hr nie....em, nk taw, 1st day owg da dtg lmbt...hakhak..bgn kul 7...smpi skola lam kul 7.35 n assembly da start....malu nk walkin through them, so i decided 2 wait at pondok jaga....huhu...em, lme gak laa tgu...maklum laa...phimpunan rasmi kn...hr isnin....mmg lame...tgu, pny tgu, pny tgu....da abis....dlm kul 8.15....so, i went 2 d office 2 meet Guru Besar n lapor diri....tp kne tgu lg...cz ade dak2 dr upsi nk wat praticum kt skola 2 jgk....(abg syafiq n abg akim)....n de 2 org dak IPRM nga wat practicum gak...(sim n wong).....so kne tgu lam opis....smpi kul 9 lbh bru dpt jmpa GB....borak2 sat... n bg borang lapor diri...owg pn mulakn tugas n menyibukkn diri....hehe...em, g knl2 ngan cgu pelatih2....borak2 ngan derg...at d same tyme, carik cgu2 lme yg msh de d skola....g library jap n bilik kaunselling....xwatpe pn rini...juz jln2 n tgk2 skola lme....rse cm da tua jew....9 thn tglkn skola nie....n there r alot of changes made...tringt zaman dulu2 mse kt skola....sgt bez....hmmmm.....bt its a different feeling being at ur old school....dulu sbgai plaja, n nw sbgai bakal guru....sgt berbeza....

nk djadikn crite, mse jln2 terserempak laa ngan murid2....spt biase, derg bg salam..."asalamualikum cikgu"....tp owg gelak...sgt pelik dgr derg pgl cikgu...haha...n owg siap suh derg jgn pgl sy cikgu....xlayak lg nk dpanggil cikgu....hahaha=p

em, g blk jmpa GB n tny psl skola n cikgu2....die ade tny, nk msk kelas x...n owg sgt xcited trus laa jwb nk2....klu dberi laa...hehe...n die tny lg, cuti nie free x?? skola de wat bengkel teknik mjwb upsr...nk join??? sy bg kamu 1 slot 3 jam ajar BI kt derg...??? owg sgt teruja tanpa bpk pjg trus kate nk....haha....xdela, nk kumpul byk2 pngalaman kt skola....sgt suke tgk bdk2 kecik yg comel....geram cm nk cubit2 jew...haha

2 jela cite rini....blk kul 2.05 stp hr....kne dtg sblm kul 7.20 stp ari...huhu

i am mine

The selfish they are all standing in line.
Faith in their hope and to buy themselves time.
Me, I figure as each breath goes by,
I only own my mind.

The north is to south as the clock is to time.
There's east and there's west and there's everywhere life.
I know I was born and I know that I'll die.
The in between is mine. I am mine.

And the meanings get left behind.
Oh the innocence pass you on time.
Significant between the lines.
There's no need to hide.
We're safe tonight.

The ocean is full cause everyone's crying.
The full moon is looking for friends at high tide.
The sorrow grows bigger when the sorrow's denied.
I only know my mind. I am mine.

And the meanings get left behind.
Oh the innocence pass you on time.
Significance behind the eyes.
There's no need to hide.
We're safe tonight.

And the meanings get left behind.
Oh the feelings get broken with time.
We're all different beind the eyes.
You may need to hide.

And the meanings get left behind.
Oh the innocence pass you on time.
Significancec between the lines.
There's no need to hide.

kau berlalu pergi......meninggalknku dsini.....

Inikah akhirnya

tinggallah lara di sini

terpadamlah api kasih setelah dikau pergi

telah ku korbankan

sudah aku curahkannya

semua kasih suci pada dirimu

tak ku mahu asmarakan hancur seperti debu

tak kumahu dirimu bukan lagi kekasihku

dan di sini tinggallah aku menanti kasih

sesaat berlalu bertahun ku rasa oh manakah silapnya

kemanakah kan ku bawa erti cinta sejati cuma di mimpi

tak ku mahu asmara kan hancur seperti debu

tak ku mahu dirimu

bukan lagi kekasihku

dan disini tinggallah aku menantikan

kasih sesaat berlalu bertahun ku rasa pedihnya ..

~C!nT@~

ku hinakn driku sndri tuk mrengkuh cinta sejati........
Cintamu bak chy mntari yg mngukuh cinta sejati........
Cintamu bak chy mntari yg mmbakar wajahku.....
Meski skilas ku rasakn......
namun akn mjd bekal smpi akhir zaman......
ku akn ttp mncintaimu.......

am i strong....???

plants are great, arent they??

even wen it rains and they get soaked,

they still stay there prodicing new n fresh flowers,

i wish 2 become dat strong t0o.....

step by step.....

when ma existence seems to disappear,

i wil look 4 d place where i can do d bez.

4rm nw on, i'll deliberate slowly,

I WONT B IMPATIENT,

I WONT B GREEDY,

I WONT GV UP

coz evry1 takes things step by step......

d other side of suffering....

evry1 feels d pain,

but surely after d pain satisfaction wil arrive,

even wif sports, studying or other ordeals,

wif life, its like dat 4 evry1.

if we can beat d pain, on d other side,

a rainbow of hapiness awaits us,

dat wil definitely become a treasure,

lets believe in dat.........